***RAW EMOTIONS***

Not a Post I wanted to write but Felt I had to write for ME and whoever else needed to see/read this.

For about the last eights months or so, I’ve been struggling within our Relationship.I’m not exactly sure what brought it on .I’m thinking it was a talk my hubby and I had . We’ve had several “talks” but generally go nowhere in terms of Emotion Support. Certain things we’ve talked about come back to me and make me start to Question our Relationship. One question I asked him was One I thought I would never have to ASK. The question was Have YOU EVER LIED TO ME? He told me that he had lied to me . I didn’t ask why , He’d lied to me. I could see that he was uncomfortable answering me.

So, my trust with him is shaky at best. I’m trying to hang in there but I can’t shake the nagging feelings I’m having towards him.

While I was writing my Blog Post for yesterday, I was listening to music. A song caught my attention and I finished my Post and search for the song.

The Title is called: “Somewhere Between I Love You and I’m Leavin’ ” by Cody Jinks.

I’m somewhere between I love you and I’m leavin’
Somewhere between I need you and lettin’ go
And it scares me so when I look hard I find no good reasons
I’m somewhere between I love you and I’m leavin’

Somewhere between I miss you and I’m gone
Runnin’ hard through the middle of the night, and you spend yours alone
I hold you close then I let you go, no leavin’ well-enough alone
I’m somewhere between I miss you and I’m gone

And the ties that bind, they hold my mind
No matter where I go, I’m alone
Here with you or out there tearin’ down some road
Nowhere is home
And you’re the only thing on earth that I believe in
I’m somewhere between I love you and I’m leavin’

And the ties that bind, they hold my mind
No matter where I go, I’m alone
Here with you or out there tearin’ down some road
Nowhere is home
And you’re the only thing on earth that I believe in
I can stay or I can go and not break even
I’m somewhere between I love you and I’m leavin’
I’m somewhere between I love you and I’m leavin’

I listen to that song while he came in the house and He didn’t say a word to me as I was making dinner. Even after dinner He didn’t really talk.He took his shower , asked me if I was going to bed.I said, Ill be in a while. I sat in the office and CRIED MY EYES OUT!! No hugs, No, Are you okay ?? I know that I have to HEAL my past wounds to move forward but now I’m wondering if he had something to do with all my stuff starting to surface?

Don’t get me wrong, I’m extremely grateful for him to want me to stay home to take care of our Home. Just another day as I’m working on myself.

Thanks for stopping by .

Til next Time.

5 thoughts on “***RAW EMOTIONS***

  1. Marriage can be a bumpy road that’s for sure. It’s odd. Have you heard of the 5 love languages? Well here’s my take. Instead of thinking guys are going to read that book and love you the way you want to be loved….they won’t a lot of times. They love you in the weird ways they do. And that’s what I’m trying to look for now… Because mine doesn’t do the classic Hallmark kind of love stuff. Instead he has his own way… It’s nice your husband likes you to stay home…as long as that’s what you want also. I wish mine were totally onboard but I don’t believe he is.. Sometimes you just have to look for the good and be thankful. Unless there’s abuse. Maybe a little counseling would help. I’ve blabbed enough.

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    1. Yes, Marriage can be a bumpy road . It’s trying at times but for me, I need to learn to ease up a bit. Mine doesn’t do the Hallmark stuff either.Both of us are pretty stubborn.So, it takes us a while to get things sorted. There is no abuse here. Thank you for sharing your insight.

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      1. I figured there wasn’t but said that just in case and also for anyone that might read this. Hang in there!

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  2. There’s a blog I read sometimes. It’s called RefreshHer. Its written by a pastor’s wife. She has some marriage stuff sometimes along with home stuff. Check her out. You might like her blog.

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